Backseat II


Cyanide and Happiness, a daily webcomic
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Cyanide and Happiness, a daily webcomic
Cyanide & Happiness @

 Dear *,

I really do love you. I do. Really. Yes, I’m repeating it. I’m trying to emphasize in case you think I’m at a loss for words. That’s not the case. I just need to make sure that you understand that you’re the most important person in my life. Only a few other people come close, but you’re on a pedestal alone. I know for sure that you know exactly what I mean.

I’m not blocking you off, darling. That really isn’t it. You taught me to grow my own wings, to become a butterfly: independent and free in thought. I have. I’ve grown my own wings with you by my side, and now, I want to color them… alone. There’s a lot out there for me to do. I’m grateful for what you’ve done to/for me. Every little bit changed me drastically… and it’s because of you that I am who I am. The most dominant things in my personality are things you’ve nurtured and encouraged. I’m thankful that you were there for me to lean on and learn from. You’re a lot more than you think. You mean a lot to me. You’re my magician. And you’re magic has brought me together during the hardest and happiest of times. It’s time that I learn to live without it. I think I’ve taken a lot from you. And now, it’s time for me to give back to you. How? I’ll tell you in a bit.

Thing haven’t exactly been great between us recently. I know. Rough times that fall on both our shoulders have made it this way. I’m taking it as a sign that we should end the little adventures. You’ll always be my human sanctuary, the human manifestation of almost everything I’ve learned up until this point in life, and most importantly, my idol. We’ll still have the talks, discussions, and shared moments. It won’t be the same. We both know that. I’m just saying it out loud in my mind, putting it in my writing here, in my outlet, the reflection of my mind. One you helped me create and advance in. Everything goes back to you. Which brings me back to paying you back for everything…

I’ll pay you back by becoming the person you’ve always wanted me to become. I finally understand what was really behind everything you ever said and acted upon. I’m on my way there. And even when I get there, I’ll make sure I take it further in a direction you would approve of. That doesn’t mean I’m using your idea of the person I should become as a guideline because I realized that it’s what I want as well. I’m welcoming the idea I opposed so much at one point. You know how it is.

I love you. I won’t say you’re big part of me… because you’re not. I’m my own person. But it’s safe to say that you’ve made me understand that I’m an individual of my own, that I’ve created myself with your help. Am I starting to sound as wise as you are? Scared I’ll turn into you someday? I bet that’s exactly what you’re thinking… and to that, I say, “So what?”


25 Responses to “Backseat II”

  1. i don’t understand;/ if you love that person and idolize him/her then why are things changing between you both?

  2. Noufa
    It’s not so complicated. We’re drifting off due to a change in things. You know.. a couple of arguments here and there. We’re good, just not as good as before 🙂

  3. I believe we meet people in life, that have an affect on us, and we learn from them somehow, something however small or grand it may be. Then we grow, and prosper, and learn new stuff, and become our own selves. Only to soon be there for others, and to help them grow and live on, and be themselves in their own way.

  4. N.
    I belive that, too. 🙂

  5. 5 V!Ce...

    Bring on the color Palette (:

  6. those wings better have some orange and yellow and and ok ok u can pick the rest 😛

    btw at the end of this post my beloved head started playing i want to break free by Queen 😛

    GL with it all and dont forget the orange

  7. “Ever has it been that love knows not its own depth until the hour of separation.”
    Kahlil Gibran

  8. 8 Rawr

    🙂 you’ll be fine. Wish I had someone like that..

  9. V!Ce
    Brought on 🙂

    Purple and green;p

    There you go. My posts are now music-inducing! Keshakht 🙂

    Hehe, I love orange. It’ll be there 😉

    No separations here 🙂

  10. Rawr
    I know I will 🙂

    You might come across someone like that. A person like A is a must have in everyone’s life, seriously!

  11. i officially hate him

  12. Hussain

  13. what tube station was that in??

  14. Love is complicated.

  15. 15 cinamonia

    i second big pearls.. but good luck with it i guess..
    off topic: got the cupcakes:) loved them!! but layer cake was too heavyy:s shno t76 feehaaa?;p

  16. Beautiful, endearing, and heartbreaking all at the same time. This is an intricate and heartfelt peace of writing.

    I wish you the best of luck with *.

    I miss you. 🙂

  17. yawarakai
    Canterbury East, and I also spotted it in Victoria 🙂

    big pearls
    Of course, but this isn’t a romantic one. It’s one where two very stubborn people try to teach each other how to live..

    Hehe, thanks.

    Madry she never gives out her recipes, bas I love it!

    Hello, darling 🙂

    All my letters are, I guess.


    I miss you more! *Hug*

  18. LOVED IT

    and babe u know i love ya :***

  19. Balqees
    Thanks! 🙂


  20. Things will just get well soon 🙂 dont give up!

  21. Amu
    Things are well. I never give up on the people who matter most. 🙂

  22. color your wings dear 🙂
    and if you don’t like a color you used, just go ahead and paint over it…

    Sometimes we do the things we think are right even if we hurt someone just not to hurt them more ba3dain…

  23. Moos
    That’s exactly what I intend to do 🙂

    Yeah.. *Sigh*

  24. You are brilliant. I love your cartoons and your writing. In fact I think I love you already. Haha, just kidding, don’t be scared, but you are a brilliant artist. I have subscribed instantly if a little bashfully,

  25. Paul
    Thanks! 😀

    Hehe, don’t worry, I’ve had my share of strange comments to know when you’re kidding and when you’re not 😉

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