Essay 1

13Apr09

Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net

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Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net

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Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net

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After analyzing the Johari window to prove an argument, I realized that all my anger, frustration, and anxiety lies in the Unknown and comes out in my dreams. The dreams aren’t subtle. They’re strong and unsettling. In each dream, something really bad happens. And what’s worse is things aren’t the way they usually are in the dream. By that I mean people I love don’t seem to love me. They don’t seem to care for whatever bad event turns out in my subconscious. They don’t do anything to stop it. I wonder what it is that makes the dreams happen. Is it because I hesitate to talk about what’s bothering me? Is it because I developed the habit of detaching myself from whatever it is? I refuse to accept the things that cause all these negative feelings, yet I don’t talk about them. What’s the point? I wonder if I’d care that someone didn’t like how I am. I wonder if I’d be willing to listen to someone complain or point their fingers at me. I mean, in complete honesty with myself, would I? I think I would, but then again, it depends on the person. Back to the dreams, they haunt me. I don’t think I want to sleep ever again.

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1 mariana on April 14, 2009 said:

I am tired and disgruntled. I feel unsettled, I don’t like you.
Last night I dreamt that I was burgled and when I awoke the dream was so real that I half expected everything to be gone when I got downstairs.

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2 amethystos on April 14, 2009 said:

mariana
And? 🙂

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3 F. on April 14, 2009 said:

The other day I dreamt that I was shot in the back of the head by a Mickey Rourke look-alike and then my nose bled…

Don’t you just love dreams and the perspectives into other worlds that they give? 🙂

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4 amethystos on April 14, 2009 said:

F.
That’s disturbing;\

Dreams, yes. Bad dreams, no. Nightmares, no.

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5 mariana on April 14, 2009 said:

thinks where there. I had my breakfast but I was still upset.

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6 do0da on April 14, 2009 said:

i cant remember the last time i had a proper nightmare, even the bad dreams i have i usually enjoy having. I hate waking up from dreams, cuz i never make ti to the ending.

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7 amethystos on April 15, 2009 said:

mariana
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do0da
Really? That adds to your weirdness.

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8 PaLoMiNo on April 16, 2009 said:

I can never remember my dreams!!! ;X

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9 L.R.643 on April 17, 2009 said:

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10 amethystos on April 17, 2009 said:

PaLoMiNo
I remember my nightmares.

L.R.643
Alright:)

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11 Manutdfanatic on April 22, 2009 said:

I feel for you, honey. I hope you feel better, soon. :*

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12 Amethyst on April 25, 2009 said:

Manutdfanatic
Thanks

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13 Al-Snafyeh on June 20, 2010 said:

hahah like the first one!
i might need some puff-puff-pass after this long day at work hahaha =p

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