"Men"

04May08

I love my friends. Really. Not because it’s that time of the month. I love them for dealing with my crappy identity crisis. I love them for being crazy with me when I feel like it. I love them for listening when I don’t really have anything to say. I love them for all the comfortable silences that we don’t have to fill even if it’s on the phone. Yes, silent phone conversations. Do you mind?! I love them for understanding me without me having to say much or anything even. I love them for being themselves in this strange world. A7ebkum yal zift w 7ada thank you;*
My answer to the previous post would be either:

I think, therefore I write.

OR

I think, therefore I cry.

I lie in bed. One hand turning my mobile over on its sides. The other hand curling a strand of my hair. And I think. I think, therefore I write.

Strange, isn’t it? This world. It’s just confusing. And it’s confusing me. And it’s questioning everything I do, believe, think, or say. Why?! Why everything?!

Why does everything have to be so right and wrong at the same time? Why do my loved ones have to go through heartbreak after heartbreak? Why can’t I make people who are down feel better? Why do I cry when it’s not me who’s going through hardships? Why are the rules of society ridiculously stupid? Why is literature underrated?!

I sigh. I turn over my mobile some more. I let it slide through my fingers. I turn it over some more. Silence. Just my phone against the covers. And in my head. Just my phone against the covers. And then, in my head, it’s me breathing. It’s me existing. It’s not me confusing myself on why the world is the way it is. It’s just me.. alive.

I continued this, but the laptop crashed, and it didn’t save. So, now.. It’s gone.
Advertisement


27 Responses to “"Men"”

  1. 1 AnGeL

    friends are the most amazing thing in the world…especially if u picked the right ones 😉 make sure u keep them 😉

    and i like this one..try to complete it 😀

  2. 2 chika

    I second Angel, especially those who get to be more patient around “that time of the month”

    Life is disgusting now.. one can’t tell right from wrong :/

  3. 3 Amethyst

    Angel
    Very true. Will do:)

    I did, but it got lost somewhere into the internet world;p

    Chika
    I know! 7ada;p

    I agree. Cheers!

  4. 4 OpeRon®

    I am sure they love you too.. oh, here’s a pair of shoes I can recognize 😉

  5. 5 jesterat314

    ‘Why is literature underrated?!’
    The question that answers many other questions

  6. 6 Amethyst

    OpeRon
    Lol;)

    jesterat314
    How about you elaborate and we turn this into a discussion?;)

  7. 7 jesterat314

    I don’t know, it just sounded like a cool thing to say! (kidding)
    Seriously, we do need a discussion about this. Just as soon as you complete this post 🙂

  8. 8 Amethyst

    jesterat314
    I can’t complete this post. Not twice:)

  9. 9 manutdfanatic

    Whys; why are there so many of them? Sigh-ness.

    I saw Becoming Jane earlier today. It was impossible not to cry.

  10. 10 manutdfanatic

    And yes, the time of the month further compounded to the tears.

    =/

    Oh well…=)!

  11. 11 Amethyst

    Manutdfanatic
    Cuz life’s a bitch:)

    I know. It’s just so sad;(

  12. 12 Kaileena

    Amethyst,dear..life’s a whore! the faster you accept it, the better you’ll feel! True story.

  13. 13 jesterat314

    I like how this post is titled ‘Men’. lol

  14. 14 3baid

    I like my friends because they’re cool, no need for those other reasons :P~

  15. 15 Vixen

    allah y5aleekom 7ag ba3ath ^^

  16. 16 kila ma6goog

    شنو علاقة العنوان بالموضوع؟

  17. 17 FourMe

    a7la ga3da ga3dat elra9eef especially if its in London in the middle of the winter :p

    Dear I think therefore I torture myself.. You and I seem to have that in common. Our thoughts will be the death of us..

  18. 18 Sou

    I love you ya zifta too 😀 No seriously, I do. “Ana wenti wel zaman tawil!!!”

    I SEE MY SILVER BALLERINA PUMPS!

  19. 19 Amethyst

    Kaileena
    I don’t want to be cynical;\

    jesterat314
    Significant to my mood when I typed in the title of the post;p

    3baid
    Hehe, I can’t love people for no reason. It’s not that easy in my world;)

    Vixen
    ;*

    Kila Ma6goog
    Mn meta kan fi 3elaqa bain my post titles w my post content?:)

    Fourme
    Lol, we’ve been labeled “homeless”;p

    They will.. unfortunately:)

    Sou
    Haha, 7atan ana ga3da 3ala galbech yal zift;*

    Cute, huh?

  20. 20 Ge6awEe

    ur identity crisis is normal, it’s just a phase that we all go through in life, it’s called maturing.

  21. 21 Silver

    i love my friends too;p

  22. 22 Amethyst

    Ge6awEe
    Maturing? I’m over that;p

    I think it’s called nervous breakdown:)

    Silver
    ;p

  23. 23 Hasan.B

    “silent phone conversations”

    Now I know why zain and wataniya make an outstanding amount of profit every year!

  24. 24 AnGeL

    so my last post left u speechless ??
    i demand a comment expressing how happy and fascinated u were at the moment!!!

    share my happiness with me…this is why god created friends 😀

    NOW GO COMMENT…inshalla a smile 😀

  25. 25 Amethyst

    Hasan.B
    Yeah;)

    Angel
    Lol! Okay..

  26. 26 Sou

    Ge3di ya after my liver and heart! :p

  27. 27 Amethyst

    Sou
    Ga3da ga3da, don’t worry;p


Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s


%d bloggers like this: