I hate being kept in the dark. I have the right to know major events in the lives of the people I love more than myself. If I’ve done so much for you, why not tell me what’s happening with you? Yes, even if it’s tragic. Is it too much to ask? I can’t believe you think it’s fair. How is it fair? You did it once, and I explained to you that it hurts. Why do it again? Why do I have to be the last to know? You’re not even telling me yourself. Were you planning to simply leave? I’m sorry you feel like I can’t handle this. I’m really sorry you feel that way. I’m also sorry I believe in you this much. I didn’t expect this. I feel betrayed. You betrayed me. Does it hurt? Because you really did. You betrayed me.
Do you think I have a problem with God’s will? I’m not an infidel, you know. I accept fate. I don’t accept negative things chosen by us. I can handle anything and everything when it comes to you. I can handle it better when I’m told of its progress. Told by you and not someone else. You shock me into this and you expect me to handle it perfectly? How is that a logical expectation? I’m not saying this to your face because I did that already several months ago. I’m disappointed in you, and it doesn’t feel good.
Don’t apologize when you know you’re going to do it again. I had my hopes up real high after last time this happened. I don’t love you like before. It’s all different now. Isn’t it?
I loved you with a fire red, now it’s turning blue.
P.S. If it makes you feel better, I still think it’s worth it🙂

14 Responses to “Elision”

  1. 1 chikapappi

    well it’s good letting it out eh?! 😉

    See baby girl, human being are weird creature, I know that because I act like a mad woman sometimes :/ All you should do is tell that person that to their face.. believe me, they’d appreaciate your honesty with them & if they don’t, then they don’t deserve a friend like you

  2. 2 Amethyst

    It’s always good letting things out:)

    I did when the same thing happened a few months back. The person reads my blog and will come across this.

    Thank you;*

  3. 3 Blue Dress

    Well i hope you guys fix things. im sure its not worth it.
    even if it was things can be solved.

    I agree with chika

  4. 4 Amethyst

    Everything will be fine inshallah:)

  5. 5 Desert-Roses

    I liked this post

  6. 6 Ra7aLaH

    let go of all the anger and u’ll be good with or without that person! just let it go!

  7. 7 Amethyst

    Desert Roses
    I like it, too. May I know why you like it?

    I’m not angry. I’m upset. I can’t be good without someone I love that much:)

    Sorry to disappoint you.

  8. 8 Desert-Roses

    cuz its kind of depressive and I am having my period…

  9. 9 Amethyst

    Desert Roses
    You like it because it’s depressing. I like it because it reflects my feelings exactly as they are.

  10. 10 Desert-Roses

    smart lady you are, ain’t you? 😉

  11. 11 Amethyst

    Desert Roses
    Umm.. Why is that?

  12. 12 Cat

    there is a solution for every thing .. sawa2 it worth wala it dose not!

    U seem to be a very nice and kind friend that no one would like to lose.

  13. 13 Sou

    Eh dah? Who are you and what have you done with Amethyst??

  14. 14 Amethyst

    True. I agree.

    Thank you:)

    This is Satanicia De Vil (the dark side of Aicha). Amethyst is going to be back soon.

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